Sunday, January 22, 2012

Death and God

Since I started back at school, it's been a roller coaster. And I'm not a fan of roller coasters! The first week of intensives were fine. I mean, it was just normal school stuff. Naturally none of the books I ordered came in on time, but I expected that. Then on that Friday, after class, I got the call that my Great-Great-Uncle had passed away. It hit me pretty hard. Death hits everyone hard, but this was especially hard for me because I had just seen him the previous weekend, just spoken to him and promised to make cheesecake this summer for him. It was really sudden. The funeral was the following Tuesday, this past one. I wanted to be there, but it wasn't going to happen. The cost of flying home was too high and not cost effective for three days. Now I'm okay. Well as okay as one can be. Thanks to my dear friends for recognizing what I needed during that time and being there to listen, pray and help. At times I know I will still struggle with this. No matter how many people you know pass on, it never gets easier. The one thing that remains the same is that I know God will help me through. And it sounds really cliche, and somewhat dumb, but it's all good because He's good. Thing happen for a reason, and though we may not understand them, God does and we just have to trust that He knows what He's doing. I know that I wouldn't have made it through if I didn't have that. If He hadn't placed my friends in my life or given me something to rely on. I just hope that everyone back home comes through okay. And I hope that anyone that has to go through this can get through it with minimal pain. It sucks hurting, crying and feeling like no one understands. It hurts to feel empty inside. It's no fun to wake up with puffy eyes and ruddy cheeks. Thank goodness God's there to help ease the pain. Life would be terrible without him.