Friday, April 6, 2012


Another full year has come to an end. Today was one of the better days. Called mom early this morning and opened presents from her while on speaker phone. Went to Berrilicious to treat myself to some yogurt and then got a half cake at Walmart. I've always wanted to try a rainbow cake. Then went to dinner with Brittany and Tabitha. Super thankful for them and their willingness to go out with me. It really did mean a lot and I am so blessed to have friends like them in my life. Now I am hanging out in my room, going to go borrow a few movies from Brittany and watch them before bed. Not much could have made this day better. I am thankful for the friends I have. I am thankful for my mother. I do wish I was at home and able to eat the cake my mom would have made for me and celebrated with her, but that's not this year. I'm sure I could post some lessons I've learned or whatever, but right now I'm pretty content.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

There are people in the kitchen of my hall who are drowning out my tv, and my tv isn't set very quietly right now. Finally got the dvd player to work. Might have to break down a buy a new one. Watching the Rise of the Silver Surfer. Thinking about the past year and where I'm headed. It's quite scary because I have no idea where my life is going.

Really miss being with ym mom right now. At least I'll get to see her this summer. That'll be nice.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Well, in three days (or two depending on how you count), I'll be getting older. This year is a little different than the others as I'll be able to spend some of it with a dear friend. Let's expound on that. A few friends and I were going to go out to a favorite restaurant to celebrate- which is something that hasn't been done in years. Then a couple decided not to go, a couple more...till it became just friend and I. I'm really thankful that I won't have to spend it alone again this year, but it really does hurt that I got bailed on once again. It's also a little disheartening that a month ago I had asked a couple to go, and they chose instead to do something else that weekend. It just sometimes makes me question the quality of friends I have and sincerity in friendship. Now I know, a few were unavoidable and really could not make it for legitimate reasons, which is cool whatever. But the sucks. Specially since I go to a school where we say all the time that "we're family, not just friends." Really? We're family? I sure don't feel like it a lot of the time. Sigh. Right now I feel a little overly dramatic and emotional. I'm sure after a bit things won't seem so horrible and lonely. And I do have that one friend who cares enough about me not to bail and recognizes how important it is to me. It's really hard being away from family on celebration days. Specially when it's been so many years since celebration has happened.