Sunday, October 25, 2009

(not) interesting

i'm a terrible blogtress. its not that i have been terribly busy or anything, its mostly that i don't think about updating about things i do not find interesting. i find myself to be a terribly boring person. pretty subnormal actually. but last night while im-ing someone i'm not super great friends with (we've just re-met for the uptenth time), i was told i was interesting and mysterious. which made me laugh. the last time i was called interesting was while i was in germany. most of the interestingness of the germany thing was because i was foreign and new. but hearing it from another american is different. and weird. i'm not interesting. things i do are pretty normal. the way that i do things are normal.

the only thing interesting about my mundane life is the fact i've chosen to do something different with my life. one of my german friends asked me why i chose to go to bible college. why i decided to be a christian. i said because it works. i'm not gonna lie or brag, but i'm a smart kid. and for a while, i was into a bunch of different religions. and after studying christianity for a while, i found it to be the only one to make sense. after that came wanting to help others to figure out the how's of how it works.the most logical way i found to do that is through studying to be a missionary. it's showing me how to explain the religion and everything in a mostly eloquent way that's understood across barriers. but aside from that, i also want to work with youth. i haven't been grown up long enough to have forgotten about the insecurities of growing up. and working with youth is where its at. they are some of the most interesting people ever. because they are always changing. always on the move. always finding new ways to come at problems. its awesome.
but that doesn't take me to where i am now. and possibly the only interesting thing about me. i love music. when i started college, i had a music minor. last year, i dropped the minor for a youth minor. which i love. i love studying youth. but this past year out of music...i felt a little off. there was something in me missing. then it hit me one day as i was playing my oboe. (yes. oboe.) music was missing. i was still playing and listening, but i wasn't singing, composing, directing or playing music like i had. few things in my life i had missed like that. hopefully soon. very soon. i'll be able to get back into it like i was. i've missed all aspects. technical and performance. one day, i hope that music will help others. one day.
so thats it. the little bit thats interesting in a whole lot of not interesting.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Long thyme

Its been a long while, dear readers. The hecticness of school finally caught up to me fully. Its been good though. Busy, but good.
I've been doing a lot of recruitment work. Not a huge amount, but enough to where I have found that I really enjoy it and am pretty good at it. I worked a youth convention- known as Impact. I love going to Impact and listening to the speaker and seeing all the people there. The other event I worked was a college fair. Which I absolutely love going to. Its a little intimidating, but still an awesome experience. I hope that I get sent out again.

Other than that, I've been doing the school thing. This past week was fall break, so not much happened. It was nice to have a week without classes, no real worries, nothing like that. It was nice. And at the same time it drove me crazy because everyone had gotten to go home that wanted to. I've been suffering from a bought of homesickness. Which is weird for me because I have never gotten homesick before. First time for everything I suppose.
As of right now, its mission emphasis week. Which is neat but nerve wrecking. Tomorrow will be the first time I've sang in over a year in front if a large(ish) crowd. I hope it goes well. All the videos I'm doing for it is on my youtube too, if anyone wants to check them out.
Right now, I need to be getting to bed. Its late and I'm worn out.