Here's the latest hat! It's going to be in the MACU student lounge office and hopefully there'll be another one and a few other cute things. I swear that yellow is gold and the green is really hunter green. Darn artificial light skewing the colors!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Today there was a stellar basketball game between my school and some rival that we have. We won by a little more than thirty points and was a pretty great time all in all. I got to hang out a little with the president of my school and his wife and granddaughter. Adorable child.
And now, after my thrifing trip and Wal*mart run I'm just sitting here on my bed finding no motivation to make these hats that I need to get started on. I also have a mini order for an elephant and have been swearing I'd make a horse for a while. Ugh motivation find meeeee!
thought by Just Becca at 7:02 PM
Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Worry is a funny thing. It strikes seemingly out of nowhere just to remind you that it has been there all the time. Just hanging out in the back of your mind, waiting for you to let your guard down just that tiny bit and then BAM. Bring you to your knees, feel like the world is spiraling out of control into a black hole, tears in your eyes, don't want to get out of bed feeling. It's a less than ideal feeling. Less than ideal meaning it's the pits. What's even funnier about worry is how people react to it when you say you are dealing with it. There's generally two approaches to it. The "Poor baby, let me listen" and then the "Matthew Six. Matthew six." For all you non-Christian folks, that's a chapter in the Bible that talks about not worrying. Both reactions tend to fall short of what's needed. Or what I imagine is needed. The Poor Baby approach leaves one...okay me...feeling belittled and unheard. Though people are listening, you can tell they've zoned out to what they are going to wear tomorrow or who is hotter than who. By the time two minutes is over, the listener is gone and I'm left feeling...well just as I did before. Worried. Worried that I may have done or said something wrong to where the person wanted to stop listening. Worried that I am just wasting their time. More worried than before.
The second group, the Matthew Sixes....well...pretty sure the frustration with that is kinda clear. Beyond the a verse isn't a real answer part, there's the am I not Christian enough? Is the reason I worry because I haven't been following God as well as I have been? As silly as these questions seem to some,it's a real struggle. Yes there is grace and forgiveness, but sometimes it's just that little voice saying you obviously haven't been good enough because of x,y,z. It may have been the way I grew up or it may just be my nature, but understanding grace is hard. It's a confusing topic and really hard to grasp sometimes. And some people, the facts of it just come easily and they don't understand why it's such a hard concept. Those people are lucky and really blessed.
Is there a right way to respond to someone who worries? I don't know. Unfortuently I can't give a set of rules to abide by for that. I can suggest listening with empathy and not tuning them out. Not making their worries feel stupid, even if they are. Quoting scripture at them probably won't help either. I'd say think about all the things you've worried about. Remember how it felt and what you wanted. Though it may not be the same thing, it might be close. At the very least, just be there. When you're worried and it feels like everything is crashing down, sometimes all it takes is one person being there to set the earth back on its axis. And if you are ever worried, I'm sorry. I am so truly, deeply sorry. I know how it feels and I hate every moment when I am, so I figure it must be the same for you. Just know that eventually everything does get better. It'll take some work, and a whole lot of hope, but it does. And crying isn't shameful. Just let it out. I hope someone is there to catch you too. Because I know how much it sucks when it doesn't seem like there is. Worry is a sneaky little jerk. But like all jerks, he can be taken down.
thought by Just Becca at 11:55 PM
Please excuse the giant one on the bottom...I stopped paying attention and did one too many rounds. The red ones are pretty sweet, maybe that'll be the second blanket?
32 to go
thought by Just Becca at 12:23 AM
Monday, January 24, 2011
Happy monday nights!
thought by Just Becca at 8:32 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Her nails are painted blue
Her eyes are clouded over with the storm she just endured
It takes time that most aren't willing to give.
What she hides from most others is a million and one dreams.
A soul that's just as compassionate as can be.
Eyes that start to cry, at most anything even remotely sad or happy.
Laughter that is just waiting to burst.
An optimistic heart over shadowed by a pessimistic mind.
Until you get to know her, all that you'll ever find
is that little piece of optimism
the June sky shade of blue.
thought by Just Becca at 6:47 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2011
MACU won in it's basketball game against Patrick Henry College. It's been awhile since a game was one and I fully attribute it to the fact there was a vuvuzela in the crowd. Pretty sure that instrument has magical game winning properties. It was pretty fun to listen to all the comments the guys had about the game; it gets pretty crazy sometimes. Now I'm just chilling in my room with my awesome babushka-like earwarmer. Some point this night I get to start a new hat pattern for my dear friend A. She wants a pixie style hat and I'm kinda excited about the colors she chose because it opens up a lot of choice in striping, blocking and so forth. Now she just has to decide on a type.
thought by Just Becca at 5:11 PM
Thursday, January 20, 2011
thought by Just Becca at 10:38 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
It's amazing what granny squares can be used for. Blankets, bags, dogs, all sorts of things. And apparently famous designers are using them to make clothes! Who knew they were so hip? This is from Paul Smith's Fall 2010 collection. Not something I would wear probably, but still pretty hip and kinda hot....
Almost done with the first week of the semester. I was celebrating with oreos, but then found out there were only two left. That few just isn't acceptable for a real celebration so I'm trying to find the will to whack open my chocolate orange. Poor, poor orange...
thought by Just Becca at 8:32 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Sunday Night Live is officially over with! I'm so excited that it is over for the weekend so now I can just chill out after registration tomorrow for a type of break before work. Sadly, my dorm is overrun with high schoolers. I like them, I really do and I love that they are here to serve with my school for the MLK day of service, however, I wish they were a lot quieter. Oh how I wish they'd all go to sleep so I can get some too...ha ha. I can't wait for classes to start up on Tuesday, nor can I wait to get to work tomorrow and find out all the catch up work I've got to get through. My job is pretty much awesome and the people I work with are super cool too. And it looks like I have all my christian service hours figured out so I have way more than enough to graduate! Yay! Now I just have to focus on getting my GPA even higher and GRE studies so I can get my master's soon!
That's all I have for now. I'm worn out after spending the day in the gym with my lights. I love lights and technical theater. So much fun.
thought by Just Becca at 11:48 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Today was the last super long day of class. I am really thankful that tomorrow is a short day, made shorter by a wonderful thirty minute delay. While I understand and somewhat enjoy learning about what the professor is teaching us, I think that this class could and should be so much more. Anyway, it wasn't what I was expecting when time rolled around for me to sign up for classes, but its okay. Right now, the end of class seems so awesome.
That's pretty much it today... Class pretty much drained everything.
thought by Just Becca at 7:40 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
thought by Just Becca at 7:29 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I am excited for this semester's classes. Cross-Cultural Counseling, Counseling Theories, Abnormal Psychology are the top ones so far. World Religions. The only one I think I dislike already is Algebra. I hate math. I hate math a lot. So...my list is looking awesome. Mostly because its light enough for me to do great on my job and really get going on the search for the masters program I want. Oh and internship things...
thought by Just Becca at 9:08 PM
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Other news, got a new hat done. Its a simple slouch for my friend who kindly watched my car over break. She asked for one like my purple one, but I didn't have enough yarn so I tried to incorporate that yarn in with the green. I'm pretty happy with how it turned out because there's a slight texture difference in the yarns that adds a neat variation. Here's the picture of it...please ignore the flight hair and not happy disposition (flying makes me unhappy)...
thought by Just Becca at 4:17 PM
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I am miserable. It's just over a day before I leave for school again and lo and behold I have what is quite possibly strep. There's no tea or juice in sight either so I'm sucking it up with some throat drops and water. Eventually I'll try that whole salt water thing again, but it never ends up pretty. Days like these are when I feel more pitiful than anything. I hate feeling sick without being sick and I kinda wish there was someone to take care of me and dote on my whims. It's funny that a sore throat can bring me to my knees, but when I had a possible broken leg (see previous posts relating to MRI) all is cool. Sigh. Looks like an early night for me. After some semi-hearty soup and packing of jeans. Half packed and it looks like everything is going to fit*. Whoot!
thought by Just Becca at 9:54 PM
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Well, it is a bit into the new year. Still feels like 2010 to me because it doesn't feel like much has changed. Still no snow in sight for me, and I am rather pleased to have only been through a couple snow days this winter...with both of them being in North Carolina. To catch up since the last blog, I've been in Kansas visiting my family there. I quite nearly love it there and would possibly live there one day. It was great and I got to spend a lot of time with my grandparents and mom. I liked it.
Back to the new year we're in. According to my number for the year, I should look forward to new experiences and travels. This oddly goes with the fortune I got from a fortune cookie. And a text from a bff. Seems odd to me.
If you're wondering, yes. I am worried about flying back. Cue anxiety in three...two...one...
I can't think of much else to say. I'm trying to decompress from the weekend and think over everything and mentally pack. Distracted is my name right now and avoidance is the game. Christmas was grand.
thought by Just Becca at 11:27 PM