Sunday, October 30, 2011


It has been a super busy October. Between classes, work, planning for the costume party and then the party, I'm pretty sure I lost time somewhere in there. It feels like it went by too fast. There were a lot of frustrations this month, mostly revolving around people not living up to what they said they'd do and others just not getting the hint. But all in all, it was a decent October.

This year to the costume party I went as a zombie. I got several good comments about it and lots of 'that looks real!' Which is what I always aim for. I'd rather look realistic than cheesy. Currently, I sit nine minutes away from Halloween. It's my most favorite holiday and I am quite excited for it tomorrow! Love it. I love the feeling in the air. The frights, treats and ghouls. It's an all around great time.

I was going to go into a couple of the things that have been bothering me, but now that I've talked about Halloween and the fact that it's so close, I don't want to. I'll save that for a post for another time.

I can't wait to be home for Halloween and help out at my mom's house. But I am really sad about not being able to spend it with my friends here at school. Maybe tomorrow I'll be able to get some friends to go with me to the haunted house in town. I've never been in the four years here, and always have wanted to. They all went earlier this month, but maybe they'll want to go again? I can hope right? Got to watch all the Halloweentown movies today, and hopefully will be able to watch many more scary movies tomorrow. I'll have to remember to pick up some candy tomorrow too! Life is always better with some fun sizes candies around.

Halloween has always been a special holiday to me. I've always loved dressing up as someone other than myself and being able to wander the streets at night with my friends enjoying the fall weather. I don't know if I can describe the feeling as anything other than magical. It just feels like everything is right in the world and happy. Much better than any other holiday in my opinion.

Well, that's all folks....
Happy Halloween!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

C'est la vie

This week is Fall Break. It really started back on Friday, but I spent Friday, Saturday and Sunday at a youth convention. It was pretty nice, I like being able to help others with some work and talking to kids about my school. I got pretty close to the girls who went and we had a great time.

Crafting has picked up a fair bit. Cranked out a couple of hats and a Spheal. For those who don't know what that is, it's a really useless pokemon that I find super adorable. Tomorrow I'm going to finish the paper mache that I started today and hopefully get a couple mustangs done for the student life 'store.' I haven't finished a bunch of projects and probably should finish them, but I feel no need to. Maybe, if I finish them I'll be more motivated to do other things?

Right now my mind is really scattered. I had thought I was going to meet a friend for coffee or something today, never happened. It's mostly disappointing because I know it's one of the few chances I'll get to maybe have a relationship with someone off campus. But I understand being busy and such. C'est la vie. Maybe something else will come along.

I'm supposed to go to Hickory this Saturday to meet a dog that the rescue I work for is considering taking into the Battle Buddy program. It's a five hour drive, which is something I was not counting on. Hopefully I can find someone to go with me so the drive will be more bearable. I'm excited to go, but not at the same time.

Sending more pictures off this week. I really hope something takes.

Friday, October 7, 2011

hand holding

Sometimes I wish I had someone around to hold my hand and tell me I'm pretty. Sure, my friends and I will goof around and hold hands and stuff, and yeah, they tell me I'm pretty. But it's not the same as having someone who is there to get to know you inside and out, who wants to know the good and bad and in between....having them tell you you're pretty, is totally different.

This may come off as really vain. I don't mean it to.

There are lots of times I look at the couples around me, and trust me, there are plenty, and I wonder, how did they manage to find each other while I'm still here alone? Then starts the, "Am I repulsive to guys?" "Am I really that bad of a person?" "That not interesting?" "What is so wrong with me?" I know these are irrational, and that I should be patient and wait, because good things come to those who wait and God knows what he's doing by not placing a significant other in my life. But I really would like to watch movies with someone to turn to during the good parts and say things to, to share walks with and to talk about random things with. It'd be swell to have someone that'll call just to see if I want to go to the aquarium that day.

I feel like this is starting to sound like the plot of a chick flick. Too bad there isn't a musical number that will spontaneously occur. I can dream right?

Oh, to have a love like Audrey and Seymour, Janet and Brad, Rachel and Finn.....

But I'll wait. Like I'm supposed to. And let these hand holding wishes pass like they always do.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


Tonight was great! Got to go out to Tres, a great mexican restaurant, with a a couple friends- one old, one new. And then listened to a brilliant story teller and their tales of travel. It was....great. just great. Any way, that's all I have time to update on. I really need to get to bed to be ready for chapel in the morning :)