Tuesday, August 30, 2011


There are times at this school where I feel as if I'm not given the chance to grow to my full potential because others are not able to see me in that light. There are times at this school where I feel the actions of others destroy any hope of bringing something from terrible to great because others cannot see how it can happen. There are a lot of times where I feel taken advantage of, left out, ignored, trodden on, deflated, hopeless, lost and wandering. I cannot pin all of those on others, and will readily accept my fair share of fault, but there is no possible way that I am at full fault for everything. And I feel that way. I feel as if others say that it is completely my fault and I should just accept that I'll never be given any real leadership positions. Do they not know that I have received many awards for leadership? Do they not know of the seminars, workshops, camps, classes and experiences I have been given on leadership? How do they not know? I miss the days when I was allowed to lead. When I wasn't questioned and when I had a good idea I was allowed to run with it. Now it just seems like every door is slamming shut in my face.

This is an amazingly sad post. At least in my eyes it is.

I just want to grow. And I can't frow if I'm never given the chance to. I want to help others to grow too, but how can I do that if I'm not given the chance to lead?